L'arc-en-ciel

The power of love. I felt envious looking at some loving couples caring for each other. Which always reminds me of how falling in love felt like. Its such a powerful feeling you feel like you’ve just entered the cheat code for invincibility for your life. And then I felt miserable. My heart was just aching to tell her how much I miss her, and that I would love to start something with her. Her life seems to be surrounded by many people right now. In the love department, she seems to not lack any suitors.
I know this feeling…its just reminiscent of how the fluttering of your heart feels when you see that someone. That hard-to-swallow saliva feeling, and a wispy air in your head. Dammit…this is love. I can’t tell her I love her. She’s been hurt once too many times, but… I would just like to make it up to her by giving her something she’s always dreamed about, that fantasy of an everlasting love, selfless and undying. I wanna show her the romance she’s missed out and how deep love can go. I want to give her hope, that love is real between us… no… I can’t… I’ll only be cheating on her by saying I love her. I’ll only be shredding her emotions by caring for her. I’ll only be hurting her when she loves me… but why?
She’s running in my head. Visions of her are everywhere in everything I do. I can’t seem to concentrate. I want so much to tell her I love her to end this uneasy cold sweating emotionally driving me insane feeling. But just like it is, I’m addicted to love. I love this feeling nonetheless. It reminds me of how strong an emotion can be. It gives me the strength to face each day knowing that I get to talk to her. It gives me the courage to do the silly things I love to do. It reminds me of how powerful love can be.