Champagne Supernova

Life sure has a way of getting at ya. You get a girlfriend, you think Gee im like the happiest person in the world right now, dance around the hills to the sound of music, only to find:
a) there's a better looking girl that you think you stand a chance for
b) there's a better looking girl that jumped on you, and its the only thing that matters now
c) your current girlfriend sucks (because she not all that goody angel caring as you thought she was since yall co-inhabit) and there's a better looking girl available for you
d) your girlfriend is a feminist/man-beater/bitch/[insert your own horrible title] and you think you can get a better looking girl just to get back at her...which is currently available to you
e) your ex is currently available ... ... and she's better looking than your girlfriend now

As you can expect, my situation now is a little bit of everything i've mentioned. Old flames do die hard, besides she was my first love, very sweet, very innocent, just like puppy love... We didnt' even get to hold hands then... we were just writing letters to each other, dropping them in each others mailbox, or passing them through friends, and it was just so cute. When we see each other, we would just giggle, hide our faces from each other and its goose-bumpy now that i've mentioned it. The only 'closest' thing we do was talk on the phone, although i hardly remember what we talked about then. So when i dumped her, which i don't even know why i did it then it was like i just opened Pandora's Box. Everything evil just came upon me and i savour them like the devil savours a chewing gum underneath the bus seat. It was nasty... but what doesnt kill ya can only make you stronger.
So now we talked every now and then, and she's kinda grown to become my soul mate, my confidant, and i think its vice versa for her... i hope... Actually i just realize that today. So she was tellin me how she tried to have a fling, and i was gritting my teeth wishing that person she was flinging could have been me... darn... and as she spare me no details with the kissing and shit, i was like wtf! That could have been me!!! oh man... well, she felt guilty about it coz the other person, or rather jerkoff was actually attached, and she knew that on the day she knew him already! (I know what ya thinking now now, take a number jerkoff) So i managed to dissuade her from carrying this on (coz im jealous it wasnt me)... but i could just never have imagine she would turn out to be like this... but before the sun sets on me, her reasons came to be that she yearns for someone to be close to her, someone she can be wrapped around in... my heart just dropped... How many special people change... how many lives are living strange, where was i when they were getting high? Guess i was just caught beneath the landslide......